My Epiphany

I hate this part. The part where you thought everything was going as planned, or at least in my eyes.

I asked for it, not hoping that an answer would be given, or at least not this way. And now that it's really happened, I don't know whether I should be relieved that I know what fate says to...

Ever since my last post, i have found no immediate reason to post more...posts, on this blog. because I thought things were looking up, finally and that I've mustered the technique of not showing anything in front of anybody, and letting myself run from the feelings which still bother me up til today. It's no wonder people always go on and on that they still can't forget that certain person.

Ever since then, I found out that maybe somewhere in time, we could be something again. But everytime I begin to construct an image of you and I, something ALWAYS comes up, and tears it down. Whether it was the jealousy of someone else, merely seeing you and hims miling to each other, or just the silence in school which took place of the many minutes I could've talked to you.

Time after time, I ignored everything.

Up til this point.

And yet, I feel sad and angry at the same time.

Angry 'cause you let your surroundings affect your words.

Sad, not because there was a fight,

But because I realised you're not the girl I fell for anymore.

This is my epiphany, after everything changed...