Friday, October 10, 2008

My Cold Cover

Life's what you make it.

Life in school with a weakened self-esteem is much like going to a food shop with only enough money to get a cup of coffee.

Eventhough you may have enough money for just one cup of coffee, one will still, sometimes involuntarily, browse through a few food stalls to make it seem like you're gonna buy something to eat while you slurp down that cup of coffee, which it's price just doubled due to the global market crisis.

As students, teachers and principals walk into their individual classes or office space, they only have a few seconds to force themselves to leave behind their personal problems before reaching the doors into a room where their responsibilty as respective roles have to come first.

That's why there is such a part of our life just known as "school life". cause' it's just another part of us where we have to let go of certain things to achieve more important stuff. But have you ever just wondered how long could someone pretend to let everything go easily?

As for relationships, it's obvious that they are everywhere. In the classroom, behind the door, on the ceiling(neh, the two cicaks), there'll always be a time in time itself where you will find yourself glancing through the couples in your class, the relationship which has been there since forever, the relationship which doesn't put age as a factor to love, or even the relationship that was rekindled, you'll, no matter how hard you try, will sometimes begin to realize that, "It should've been me".

I guess that's why people make jokes and to try to talk about random stuff. To distract themselves about whatever's bothering them, both inside and outside the closed gates of school and work.

1 comment:

Persephone said...

Naturally, the dude with money enough for only ONE cup of coffee will come back the next time with more money. Whether he strived harder to earn more money or to save money along the week, it shows that he became someone better later.

*Hugs*

Acceptance is something that we have to reach out really far to achieve. But one day, you will wake up and realise that you no longer give a shit about pretending or putting on this tough act. For me, I don't think that I have fully accepted the whole thing but to be able to let my hair down and quit acting pretentious is the best thing that has happen in such a long time and it didn't even matter if it was Acceptance or Resignation anymore.

Everything that happens, happens for a reason prior to God's plan for us. Talking to him really helps and sometimes it may even help you see that small part of his plan for you. Even though its not an instant cure, but it helps to ease the process. Coming from a former doubtful believer, I reckon it's gotta mean something, huh? :)

Take Care and All the BEST in your SPM! You'll do great :)